Digital Dynamo

Summer- Day 107: The Last Day

Okay when I woke up this morning I started having like an anxiety attack for no reason and successfully really depressed and scared myself then when I got in the shower I turned it up as hot as it would go which is what I do when im having an axiety attack for some reason then was in there for 30 minutes when I got really nauseous and light headed. Then blacked out then passed out. I woke up probably a few minutes later sort of hunched and slumped weirdly in the shower, luckily i didnt fall. When I got out I immediately drank a ton of water and layed down then felt so much better. I think I was just super hungry/dehydrated and that mixed with my stress and heat caused a bad reaction. Anyway after that spent the day packing and then got my oil changed/tires rotated and bought the last bit of stuff I needed. When I got back home I watched half of Alien and then packed up my car and then went for a run. Now im getting ready for bed so I can wake up at 5:50 tomorrow.

Even though summer goes on a few more days this is my last post because that real point of this isnt to dialogue my summer, because im not interesting. Its because I have a weird memory and am incapable of remembering things on my own and my life has these huge chunks in them where I remember nothing and really the only things I can remember are because I have people to share it with so it was a weird attempt to share it but tomorrow I can be with people I love and the people that mean the most to me so I can have those memories and not need to write it all down.

My entire day depends on my phone giving me proper directions and waking me up on time.

Summer- Day 106:

Sat on my ass and listened to pod casts all morning then ate probably the saddest lunch ever. Half a jar of jam. What made it sad to me is not that I ate half a jar of jam but that at the time I was so content with that decision. Like oh hey cool we have jam. Then I got a hair cut at 2 and its cool but I regret my decision buying the recommended product because not only is it super expensive but i dont think it holds i think it just texturizes. Anyway when I got home i played some civ and minecraft then went for a very short run and am now gonna play some L4D2

Before:

After: 

I don’t know why my eye is looking weird and the picture does not do it justice for A) how superman it looks and B) The texture is awesome because its like wavy looking on top but the lighting in this picture makes it look too dark.

Summer- Day 105

Finished Dance last night around 1 AM so technically thats today hense why I am posting about it. When I woke up it felt really weird to have like absolutely nothing to do or plan to do so I kinda just sat there and dicked around. Then I watched the pilot to battlestar galactica and played some L4D2 with Kevin. Then I packed and am essentially done packing except I have to put my toiletries and TV in my car and pack one more load of laundry which im doing the day before I leave. Then went for a run and played some Civ while listening to the last two epsodes of ContinueCast that I missed and then played Minecraft for a tiny bit.

Summer- Day 104:

When I woke up I read one chapter from Dance then realized I had work so rushed into the shower and ate my food then ran off. Work was pretty good and over all nothing too exciting happened it was just perfectly average. It was my last day which is cool. Also I’ve been feeling really good the last few days like just on a high it feels really good you know. I know why im on a high too which is always good. Anyway after that just got home and did nothing for a bit. Ran for 5  miles in 45 minutes. Running for 45 minutes straight is weird, its a long ass time.

Anyway now im reading and im convinced im gonna finish Dance by the end of the night

Summer- Day 103:

Read a bunch of Dance then went shopping with my mom and got a bunch of shirts and stuff. Finally got a new pair of corduroys because my old pair is torn to shit, I also need someone to sew those back up because i am clingy to them haha. Anyway got another cardigan but its kinda ugly but I wanted it. Also picked up my new glasses. One pair I got solely because when I get my hair cut im asking to look as much like Superman/Clark Kent as possible

and the other pair because I just wanted another pair and they are kinda cool, you can’t tell from the picture but they are brownish not black

When I got back I read a ton of dance and had an emotional break down because of how happy I was at something that happened, and now im about to go to the movies and see some old friends.

Summer- Day 102:

Woke up really late for some reason which for me is weird normally I wake up at 9 at the latest but I slept 10 and a half hours last night. Anyway after that I sat around and watched youtube for a bit and read a few chapters of Dance then sat around in my pajamas and did laundry all day then read more dance after my run. Now im playing minecraft with Kevin building a ridiculous plantation style home haha.

A delicious post run snack of apples and peanut butter

Summer- Day 101

So the new protein powder I put in my smoothies is probably the greatest thing ever, it serves multiple purposes one it makes everything taste like chocolate cake which is amazing and one serving of it is fifty perfect of the recommended protein so my mom doesn’t try to guilt me into eating more meat which is always an amazing thing. I did one load of laundry then sort of forgot to do the rest later in the day not even sorry for that since I can do it tomorrow. Read some Dance and then watched a ton of youtube videos, around three i went to the store to pick up some lunch for myself and decided what the hell and weighed myself. I think I was in the middle of a  low weight fluctuation due to not eating for a while but I was at 134 but im gonna go a head and say im probably 136, because my weight fluctuations literally range up to 6 pounds and I care so little about weight I just think its interesting to weigh myself every now and then but its official that I’ve lost like 20 pounds over summer and none of it is visible haha.

Anyway went for a run later and then read some more Dance and now im on the Mass Effect Wiki just to make sure I know everything and whats weird is that I do. Oh I mailed in my voter registration form so eventually I can be a registered voter. Only a year and a half late but whatever I take my time.

For some reason here is me making a doof face after my run

Summer- Day 100

So this summer has gone on 100 days… Not gonna lie when I started doing this I thought it would last ninety at the most. I don’t know I just assumed the summer wouldn’t be so long and yeah this was easily the most miserable summer if not most miserable 100 days ever but you know thats what happens when you are forced to be alone in an household that feeds off of hatred and blame.

Anyway today I got lunch with some friends and then went to CVS and bought all the bathroom shit I need for school and then did packing and that basically just made a giant ass mess in my room but whatever things happen. Then I went for a run and decided to change it up today so instead of just running 4 miles constant. I ran one mile, and by ran I mean actually ran so I did it in 6:40 and then walked 1.5 miles then ran another mile so in the end I did 3. Then I got back and decided to read Dance and I read about 100 pages before calling it quits.

Here is the giant ass mess you cant really tell but my entire bed is covered. 

Yes my blanket is camo I got it when I was 11 shut up.

Summer- Day 99:

Woke up at 7 and did that really weird you think you are awake but don’t remember anything then you realize three hours have passed and have no idea if you actually fell asleep, oh wait no one else does that? I guess thats just me then. Anyway after that I read a lot of Dance but when I got to a part where it was 3 non main POV’s in a row I decided that was best left for another sitting. I then went to the post office to pick up a voter registration form because I feel that maybe its appropriate for me to have one after that I played a ton of minecraft and then went for a run and watched all of JonTrons videos again because I am secretly very jealous of every video game youtuber.

Also I finished all my gum and i really need a hair cut.

Summer-Day 97/98:

I guess I didnt post one yesterday? No I swear I did I must of just not tagged it or something. Well I just checked and apparently I didnt make one. See this is why I am making these posts because now I have no idea what happened yesterday or anything that I did which is scary to me. Anyway today I went to work and it was alright nothing big happened except that I was generally hilarious and thats what normally happens. I went home and then went shopping and got sheets for college which is cool. I woke up super depressed and super tired so all day I was somewhat miserable not really over that but whatever so I didnt run today which only makes me feel worse because I feel like a lazy jerk. Anyway now im about to go to bed, maybe I dont know im just bored I guess.

Heres me super sweaty from a run yesterday, I dont remember why I took it or if I had a joke or something to go with it.

Summer- Day 96:

Started the day by reading some Dance and loved the plot, already so SO SO much better than Feast. Then decided to do nothing all day which was a very good plan on my part I feel. I honestly can’t name one thing besides that I watched Everything Must Go and rather enjoyed it. Not feeling to hot but thats just bound to happen. Right now im playing Civ V with Kevin. Yes I am on two computers.